Monday, July 13, 2009
Why Fides et Familia, you ask? Why in Latin? Faith and Family. I have an anxiety disorder. I have sought treatment for it in the past, including counseling and medication. I was able to stop meds and counseling after about a year of treatment. Read a book called Do One Thing Different, by Bill O'Hanlon..it really changed something for me. I still experience anxiety at times. Usually it involves my children, or others close to me. I am a worrywort...not just normal mommy worries...I have irrational fears about things that will probably never happen. But I still get up every day and live my life. I learned that I need to have more faith. Faith in myself that I can deal with problems or crisis. Faith in my kids that I have and will continue to raise them to make good decisions about their life. Faith in my husband that he will love me and honor our vows. Faith in God that He will take care of me when I need it, even when I think noone is listening. And family. I am not a lovey-dovey person(except with my kids and hubby, but sometimes even with them, I need to work on it!). I have never been the type of person to reach out and hug my parents or brother. I don't like telling people how I feel about them(again, with the exception of my children and husband). Despite all of that, I do feel that my family (and close friends) are THE most important! My family is everything. Maybe I 'detach' so that things don't hurt when people go, but my family is all I've got! Latin...I love Latin! I'm such a nerd! I took 4 years of Latin class in high school, and plan to take some refresher courses when I start college next year. I say 'lepus, lepus' as a good luck charm on the 1st of every month. I constantly hear words in everyday conversation that in my head I break down into their Latin root words...like I said, nerd!